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Had a good talk with Di Jie today, it's one of the few times where I actually sit down and 'reflect' haha. I need to sort everything out..

Nothing much to blog about these few days..

edit: on a side note, today marks the end of the beautiful month because October 1st is not a monday. Yeah, I know, I'm just being random...

results out

Ok that's it, got back Chem paper 1 and 2 and my chem overall got 76.9.. I'm happy with the A I got but my paper 2 was not as good as I expected. Indeed it's challenging, and I lost marks because I didn't study and memorize all the keywords correctly.. Gotta bulk up.

Physics I got 70.8, everytime I always scrape an A haha I'm kind of lucky I guess? I know I made LOTS of careless mistakes. There are 3 questions in which the formula I applied has a square in it (x^2) and I didn't square it in the calculation. 3 questions! That made me lose about 6 marks. Stupid me. But well I guess I need to be more careful when I'm doing the real A level itself. I'm quite scared for physics because I did last year's A level paper and I felt that it was really hard. There were some questions which I really didn't know how to do on my first attempt.

Hope I'll do fine in the A levels I guess. And there's still GP to worry about.

What should I get?

I had beehoon and kuay teow this morning, seriously Singapore's food cannot be compared to our local food man.

And I'm back in Singapore again.. Really wish I can stay at home for longer but well I have lessons. Haha.. I need to start getting more serious with myself..

home sweet home <3

I'm back in Malaysia with my parents! :)

Haha I love home. This time I took bus with my brother to customs checkpoint and my dad fetched me from there. Yesterday night we went to Carrefour to shop for super lots of food (which we're gonna use as dinner today XD) and I went to buy a new pair of specs. Gosh, my myopia keeps increasing and now my left eye is in a serious condition with 775 myopia and 250 闪光. Hate this.. I need to start taking care of my own eyes from now on. And we went to a western restaurant to have our dinner it's quite nice! I had red wine chicken chop.

Then we went back home and OMG the 46 inch LCD TV is super big! Haha I connected my computer and it's displaying the computer screen at full high definition (1920x1080) and we watched the HD star wars super clear man. XD And my dad has all sorts of tools ready: I'm using a wireless keyboard and wireless mouse now :D Haha suddenly my house became like very high tech. We used our old Hi-Fi system as the audio, it's rather nice but can't compare it to home theatre system of course. I'm really happy at the LCD tv yay haha I'm super high.

So this morning we woke up and we went to eat roti prata for breakfast! The roti I ate in Singapore really can't compare with malaysia's one man. Then we went to shop at BP Mall and I bought some really crazy clothes hahaha I'll wear them when I go back to singapore :)

Long long update. Will post pictures of myself when my brother email me the pics!

chem3 + econs

I got 62/80 for chem paper 3.. Though it's an A I thought that I could have done better. It's an easy paper the least, but I had too many careless mistakes. But it's okay..

Econs.. So the marks on ISP was real, I got 61.7, B. Really happy with my essay marks (19 16 18!!) but my case study flunked. Luckily it only constitutes 40%.. Must work hard for it though. I always can't get what the questions in the case study are asking for.. Ouch. At least my hard work is reflected in the essay :)

Had a nice long talk with Mr Loy today and it was fun haha we talked about lots of things, mostly studies though. Mr Loy took computing when he was in JC! And he didn't get A for it haha he said he don't really remember why he took it haha. Actually I wanted to take computing too.. But I decided to go with the norm. I'm not really regretting my choice anyway, I think physics is rather interesting. Haha. But studying in general sucks still.

Going home tomorrow! I'll miss the class kbox outing sigh why must the timings clash! Hate this..

math

First of all,

CONGRATS ADRIEL! Haha he's finally earned his A in math! To think that he scored U for block test 2. Must work hard ok! And be consistent!

Ok.. So today we got back math.. I got 87 for paper 1 and 78 for paper 2.. It's quite shocking because I thought my paper 2 would do better than my paper 1. I've got too many careless mistakes in the statistics portion, there was this hypothesis question where I actually misread the number on the question -.- And then I just lost half of the marks like that. But well I'm happy that I got an A.

And it was leaked that Econs marks were on ISP.. So I checked and I got 61.7, a B. It was within expectations and I'm happy that my hard work (a whole week on econs!) did not go to waste. And I'm like, 92% percentile. However it's not confirmed that the marks are real.. So I'll wait till tomorrow to see my results.

So I went to sim lim square just now to look for a mouse.. And then I realised that all the gaming mouses are like, super expensive. (It's better to buy a super good mouse than to buy a cheap but not durable mouse, right?) Thus I decided not to buy hahaha -.- Since my mouse is still working, though it has aged and is ready to explode anytime into waste junk haha.

Listening to S.H.E's newest album 我的电台 right now. The intro is kinda funny, but the first song (track 2 我爱烦恼) is rather weird. I'll keep listening..

batman returns!

This morning at 2.30am, while I was asleep for about an hour, my roommate opened the door and a bat flew into my room and rested on my table beside my glasses. Like, wow. Then my roommate was like super scared and he tried to wake me up.

Him: "Eh xianyou there's something beside your specs" (he didn't know what it is)
Me: ".. C sharp minor" (lol I dream about guitar when I sleep)
Him: "Eh xianyou seriously there's something beside your specs"

So I woke up and my mind was a mess and I just casually took my specs and wore it and WOAH! There's really something black on my table. Then I was like super scared also hahaha at first I thought it was a mouse then a frog then I finally reached the conclusion that it's a bat. What the hell, there are bats in the hostel! And so we didn't know how to 'disturb' it and we called the office at that hour -.- And then I saw the bat fly out of my room and I was like oh my god and I just ran out of the room hahahaha I'm super timid. Then the officer came and in the end did nothing -.-

Anything. Gosh I hate bats from now on. At least it did something funny: it shitted on my GP prelim essay. LOL hahaha. My GP essay is like crap anyway.

Today is quite a wasted day I guess? Played some dota.. And downloaded some new songs, gonna listen to SHE's newest album later. Though the first impression mark is gone I listened to 宇宙小姐 a week ago (pre-release) and it was like ........................... hahaha. At least I did some math just now! But I can't get the answer for some questions. Hell, I hate studying.

This blog post appears to be very random. I think so too. Hmm. Haha.

To all J1s jiayou for promos!!

updates

Let's see.. I am proud to introduce my newfound love: Taylor Swift! She's a country singer who's got amazing voice, is pretty, and can compose songs! Basically everything you would dream of in a perfect girl. XD Haha I'm just crazy in love with her because all her songs are so nice! Her Love Story is an amazing song, go youtube it and you'll feel the love :)

Hmm I remember I was kinda happy on Sunday night but I forgot why -.- But of course Taylor Swift is my new motivation to study HAHA there's no link. Ohh I have been watching 放羊的星星 these few days and finally finished it today, it's a really nice show :) The male lead actor is like super sweet. If only I can be like him.. Haha! Taiwanese dramas always make me dream all about love hahaha I probably shouldn't be so affected.. But still I'm just like that. Haha.

And I got back my GP essay today. I got 23/50, just scraped an E. Let me recall the examiner's remarks (I think it's Wilks):

"You need to write considerably less and think a great deal more."
"Excruciatingly belaboured descriptions with virtually no beating on the question."

The underlined words were underlined by him! Haha I don't really have any comments I knew I wrote badly because I didn't identify the key words of the question correctly. I just hope I learn from my mistakes and move on.. I'm really worried about GP but well what can I do.. Just practice more I guess.

Damn I still can't switch chords on the guitar nicely. Must practice more! Haha..

Current music: Love Story - Taylor Swift

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes" 

desktop

I like my desktop right now. Let's capture it before my wallpaper changes again haha

BORING DAY :)

Okay today is a boring day. It's just extremely dry for me. I woke up and started staring into the computer, after which I went for lunch and then I broke my promise by playing dota -.- Gosh. And I came back to my room to stare into the computer again. And I still am staring into the computer. I wonder how much my myopia has intensified. Hate this life yo. I need some excitement in life.

lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again

I'm listening to Lucky again! It's really a very nice song. If only I'm that lucky.. Haha! Just joking :D

random again

"That's when I love you
when nothing babe, nothing you do would change my mind"
                                                                          - Asyln, "That's When I Love You"

'see U there'

Hmm haha today we went to the students' forum and some people voiced out their thoughts which I thought was really insightful, such as Kristine's views on the 'quality of education' and Sua Yu's opinion on elitism (I don't know who he's pointing to hahaha) but I think that these people are really just zhai haha. And I dislike the whole auditorium making noise, seriously, can't you all just shut up for some moments.

And after that it was GP takeback! Yay I'm like super happy because I got a U, 17.5/50. It's like, really bad. Even our class' highest scorer Qiuyu only got 24/50, everyone in the class failed (get <25). It's that bad. Gahh why am I getting such bad results! To be honest I didn't expect to do very well for GP but I certainly didn't expect a U.. The most idiotic thing is that everyone flunked summary. wth, 1/8 for summary is gosh. But I can't deny the difficulty of the summary because it's just hard. I desperately need help in summarising skills.

But today was fun because me junyao jiamin yichan and melissa was singing lots and lots of songs at our class bench :D Junyao's really proficient at guitar and we sang nice songs. It was fun mixing I'm Yours, Collide, Superman and Here Without You together hahaha music is really part of my life. It's like I was feeling really down after taking back my GP paper and singing just made me smile :) like I've never done and enjoyed like I've always been not doing so. And guitar is awesome!

Junyao don't emo ok! XD

edit: information error

edit 2:
Hmm I wished that I had a camera, or a phone camera but I'm not planning to buy a new phone.. I realised there are many random things that I really want to photograph but I think once I got the camera I'll get bored of it someday later. That's me with 三分钟热度. Haha.. So I shouldn't get a camera.

choir love :)

Hmm today marks the first post-prelim day! So I woke up and started listening to the bunch of 天上智喜 songs that I've downloaded yesterday XD I personally enjoyed especially the a cappella songs (can't help falling in love dancing queen faith!) and some other songs.. I need to get involved with more genres of music haha..

Oh and Soler is really a good group, the twin brothers have really nice voices and they got the looks too!! And they compose their own music! My my one day me and my brother can form a group like them too. LOL

Today went for choir outing @ botanical gardens! It was super fun, though the weather is super hot I walked to botanical gardens with all the sweat -.- But haha we had lots of food.. Chicken and fish nuggets, sandwiches and chips! Hmm.. We talked a lot and sang a lot, and haha we were finding sticks there to substitute as magic wands from harry potter hahaha it was fun! Lots of crazy stuff.. And junyao actually managed to remember every single line from the usain bolt video! Hahaha.. I love my choir :) :)

And back in boarding school.. Dammit why do I have sweaty palms! It makes typing so inconvenient and I cannot play guitar properly!!! =.=

Why am I watching taiwanese love dramas? It makes me emo so much about stuff..

family love <3

Hmm Physics MCQ was.. okay. I made some careless mistakes (as with how I did for ALL my physics papers -.-), but I don't really care because it's the last paper.. And prelims is finally over. I didn't really feel anything special, in fact life has maybe become more boring for me because all the time that I used to study (not much anyway) are now free. I guess I shall devote more of my time in GUITAR :D

After that went with Xian Zhe and Jianyi to cine to eat burger king because we had absolutely nothing else to do -.- Dear junyao pangseh us (haha joking!) and so we are all lonely and sad. Haha. I must say sorry to xz and jianyi for not being able to accompany them longer..

Met up with parents.. And it was loving and loving and loving haha we did lots of stuff, including eating fries shoppin' at fairprice buying 0.0% alcohol beer getting stuck in the carpark lol! And omg my brother cut his hair!! Super short now. Being with my family really rocks, they're the nicest people around. Haha.

So! Off to guitar!

Chemistry

Chemistry.. It was kinda okay, but paper 2 was challenging. Luckily I read up a lot of other stuff on myself.. And I'm super glad that I did last year's prelim to get a taste of its difficulty. It scared me out yesterday night haha.. But it's over! So I'm left with Physics (read: feeeeeeeeesiks) paper 1, MCQ is the hardest paper IMO in physics. A za a za fighting! :D

Math

Maths paper 2 was surprisingly okay. Besides the AP/GP question (which I spent a freaking 1.25 hours on it and still don't know how to do the last part of the question), the paper was kinda manageable, as can be observed from the time I spent on that idiotic AP/GP question :D Meaning that I finished the paper very early. Statistics is too no-brainer when it comes to using the graphing calculator.. Haha.

Tomorrow's Chemistry.. Supposedly my best subject, but I heard that it's gonna be quite hard, as quoted from Mr Sam Lee, "I gave you 80 marks in paper 3, I'm taking back 100 marks in paper 1 and 2, so overall you still fail haha!" -.- I guess I'll work hard tonight but knowing me I won't study much haha that's me. You can't force me to study when I don't want to nothing will go into my head anyway.

Prelims are ending in 2 days.. I guess I'll still be as no life as ever after prelims end, and I'll be even more no life because the time I spent on studying during the past few weeks is going to become free time and I won't know what to do sigh. Off to guitar!

Humans and robots living together
in harmony and equality.
That was my ultimate wish.
                                                                            - Dr. Thomas Light

Before maths

"This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised..."
                                                       - Bubble Wrap, McFly

I'm sick

Today is a very unproductive day.. Spent the whole morning guitaring haha then in the afternoon I don't know what I was doing also, I only know that I caught a cold and now I'm super sick T_T Hmm downloaded 天上智喜's songs to listen, I think some of 'em are quite nice, haven't finish listening though.

Gosh I need my nose to stop sneezing! It's irritating me so much.

'Cos you've had a bad day

Today IS a bad day. Much as I don't want to admit it, it is.

So the day started with me waking up at 8am, nothing much happened, then I was sweating for no reason (I hate sweating! even though it's like the norm for me) whatever. Then I was about to go to school when I took out my school pants from the laundry packet when I realised that it's got a BIG hole. Must be the laundry's problem. What can I do? Sigh.. That sucks. Then there was the big rain, I love rain, but I don't know why I continued to sweat like nobody's business.

And I'm sad to say that I completely screwed up Physics Paper 2, it was so badly done that I don't want to describe it.

So I was unable to control my emoness and I just showed it to everyone else.. Maybe it's me who's too ill-considerate, I guess I need to stop having these kind of sadness because it's not gonna do me any good. Spent some time emoing at the class bench and playing guitar.. And then went to eat and Dr Ang was sooo nice she treated me junyao and xianzhe to milk after we said that we screwed up physics! :) I think Dr Ang is such a wonderful person :D It really cheered me up a lot, and I really want to say a big THANK YOU to Dr Ang! You made my day :)

Hmm.. So I guess it can't be helped I've got to try to study for next week's papers to make sure that I don't screw up again.

Today is a beautiful day because all the bad things do not compensate for Dr Ang's extraordinary goodness :)

But I can't help the fact that Physics has removed every inch of my highness off myself and I'm having the detestable feeling again.. Sigh.. I hope I can recover from this in a few days..

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It's amazing on how one's emotions can change so quickly.. To think that I was so high and content with what I'm doing a few days ago, and tonight I was just wasting my time doing i-don't-know-what. And yeah, I know I'll start talking about all the things I've always been talking about when I was emo, but well that's just me.. Now I need some catalyst to lower the activation energy for me to go back to myself XD

That's when I love you

So today was physics.. I thought it was easy, turned out I made a LOT of careless mistakes. But well, at least it wasn't the oh-my-god-I'll-confirm-fail type, so I'm not sad :) I'm gonna show Junyao that my guitar can improve! Haha.

That's when I love you, when nothing you do could change my mind

Nice song! I love it.

Beautiful day

Math was kinda okay, I made lots of little careless mistakes here and there but well I guess I should be able to get > 65, so no complains from me.. Though I aimed higher deep inside my crazy mind.. Haha.. Hmm so after math went back to boarding school. Knowing me I won't study for chem but actually I did! I was reading the materials from http://www.chemguide.co.uk/ and it's actually quite interesting. Plus, it also contains some extra information so I get to enjoy reading. XD

Learnt a LOT of guitar from Hoe Wei! Yay thanks lots to him who taught me some chords, strumming styles and a lil' bit of improvisations. And adding the '7' chords really make them sound nicer :) I have set a target for myself! I'm gonna be able to play a song with smooth chord changes by the end of September. Must work really hard for it man. Guitar is just so awesome.

Chem.. Nothing much to say I'm not in the position to comment, yeah, some careless mistakes again and DISPLAYED FORMULA wth la I didn't draw full structural :( But it's okay lo, I just need to prepare for the subsequent papers PHYSICS oh my god it will kill me for sure. I'm super scared for physics.. 'Cos I didn't study much for it haha..

After reading the beautiful day story I have been in the highest of my moods these few days (even though this morning someone screwed me up) and I hope that doesn't change :D Today is a beautiful day. Even if I cannot see it, I do appreciate it and I thank everyone who made, or at least tried to make today a beautiful day.

:)

Oh and I need to mention that this month, September 2008, is a beautiful month. It's because 1/9 is Monday, 2/9 is Tuesday and so on. See it matches! So it's nice. Haha.

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said : "I am blind, please help".

There were only a few coins in the hat. A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them in the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognised his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?" The man said,

"I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way." What he had written was

"Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it"

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing? Of course. Both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively. Invite the people towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When Life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face the past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Dont believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

today is a beautiful day, maybe it's just that i couldn't see it. :) 

And I realise I haven't talked about how disastrous econs is today. Oh I just did.

Slept at 2.40am this morning and now I accidentally woke up then my body cannot take it ah.. Super painful.. And the whole mind is blank and I feel stupid -.-

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I found a reason to live.

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Went for MAF just now.. I guess it's not as good as last year's. It was more high last year (plus it didn't rain haha) and I still remember Harapan going around showing us cool magic. This year.. The performances were mediocre I guess. And last year the choir people went to the Terraces to stone talk and sing lots of songs :) So this year in comparison may sound a bit worse.. But today I was quite high with my classmates! Though attendance was poor we sang the hc songs and danced the mass dance and it was fun :D So yeah I'm kinda tired but happy today because after all it's a lovely day.

Not forgetting that it's 1 day to prelims, I think I better start reading up on Econs. Hmm.. I aim to get a C..

Define emo.. I don't know. Haha.

3 days to prelims. DIE. Life has been uninteresting due to the need to MUG and MUG and MUG and MUG.. Though I can't really concentrate, that's why I'm blogging here. But then there isn't much to blog.. I'm just scared that I can't get good grades, as I slacked through most of the holidays...

I don't know what to do now because I have totally no motivation to mug. I know I'm feeling guilty of not doing anything right now but I just can't bring myself to memorize that whole chunk of damn econs information. And I don't feel like playing games either.. I don't know what I want currently. It's a moment of no life for me.. Maybe I wish to sing but I don't have the urge too. Hmm.. Let me try to find something interesting to do.

Oh I'm hungry. -.-

Watched Wall-E today and I must say it's one of the best movies I've watched (excluding musicals like RENT! XD).. I think the idea itself is kinda original, coupled with amazing 3D animation. And robotic love is just <33333 Hmm shouldn't spoil too much, but I really strongly recommend everyone to watch the movie. :)