Rent is amazing. It brings so many real life problems inside, and through the use of music, it expresses them all astoundingly. The songs are also really nice, I really love the idea of how they combine totally different songs into one harmony. :) It's just beautiful. The characters' inner struggles, the power of love and friendship. Rent has inspired me to look at life through a different viewpoint.

"Forget regret, or life is yours to miss"
"I should tell you I should tell you"
"Would you light my candle"
"Will I lose my dignity?"

"Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes"

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Another equally amazing thing is Jason's WCG Upload 3 :) because it brings back so much memories of Graz..<3

Hey, the Sound Baster USB X-Fi isn't that bad at all. I can actually hear differences in the audio quality in music.. So yay :) And it adds nice feels to gaming, Devil May Cry 4 was fun with it. I haven't try on other games like Crysis/Call of Duty 4 though.. No time ah.. Study for prelims..

Hmm this is a long break, or long _study_ break.. I'll try my best to catch up on whatever I've forgotten in Economics..

Spent quality time with my family today :) and we went to bro's hostel to look for him. He's got his personal fridge haha the fridge in my cluster sucks. Anyway.. I bought Creative Sound Blaster X-Fi Go! It's a USB sound enhancer system with the Crystalizer and CMSS technology.. I'm still trying to figure out how it works, the crystalizer thing seemed to help a bit since I can hear the percussive sounds more crisply :) but I can't hide my disappointment in the surround sound thingy, maybe my speaker is not good enough. If I have time I'll try it with Devil May Cry 4.. :D

But I'm feeling really bored now. >.<

GP was.. fine. I did something like "The idea that science can create a perfect world is a dangerous delusion. Discuss." And apparently Miss Ouyang said it's one of the harder questions. So probably that means fail. For compre, I don't really have any hopes on it, so probably fail.

That's it.

I lost my music.

Is it just me who's too paranoid about GP? Everyone else seems to be so relaxed about it, my roommate's going out for dinner, and my other friends just gave the 'anything' attitude. Sigh, I don't even know whether I've prepared enough, or whether I am preparing for GP the right way. God bless me that I get easy questions, especially on technology :) so that I can write my essay with ease.

Let me try to recall some stuff that I've read..
"We live in a world where time and space are colonized and reshaped, where the boundaries and frontiers of reality and artificiality are engineered and recontextualised."
"We should be circumspect in dismissing entirely the *notion*"

... Haiz.

Oh on a side note I learnt some stuff these few days! Got Junyao to teach me the basic guitar chords XD F chord sucks. And got tacky to teach me some basic stuff about piano chords.. I hope I have the time to prac prac and prac after prelims! XD

I need to keep myself ready in this ever-changing life of mine, being able to face different challenges. Although I still might get affected sometimes, I can't keep running in circles all the time, because in the end I still go back to the starting point. Now, I need to focus on prelims. Everything else comes later.. Though they are still of importance to me.

Really bad sleep man. Don't know why also.

I lost my motivation to mug, and to blog too..

Probably too dependent on people. Sigh..

Today was a fine and happy day because I get to enjoy the nice breeze at 5pm as usual, haha. Second last day of school.. Mrs Tan still scolds us, Chemistry lecture was.. like that lo. Ate with Xian Zhe and Junyao, sigh I think I understand what Xian Zhe feels? Haha.. Glad to see Di Jie feeling so much better in econs lecture. Physics tutorial Mdm Chen bought food for us! Touched XD we had our last Physics lessons doing the H1 MCQ, omg it's really quite hard.

So I was doing my P&C and one shot I almost finished the chapter and in the end I can't solve the last question -.- In the end I gave up -.- and went to read GP bulletin, and Rui Yan's essay on globalisation really kindled my interest in doing globalisation questions wahaha I might just try it if it comes out in the actual A levels.

I miss singing with the choir.. Haven't been really making music in a while ;-x

It feels really good to be with my family, even though today I didn't spend a lot of time with my family it made me realise how important they are to me. I can't believe I nearly cried when I was telling my mum about my thoughts.. Really, my dad, mum and aunt are the ones that I can really turn to when I need someone to listen.

I love my family. :)

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Again I forgot that tomorrow would be the second last official day of school. I.. don't want to not go to school.

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I still remember how I couldn't sleep yesterday night because I was thinking a lot, and the feeling's coming back again; I want to be able to sleep peacefully, not thinking too much about anything. Yet it just keeps coming back and haunting me. When will I ever not think so much? But maybe it is the thinking that defines me, that makes me who I am.

Probably another dark and lonely night.

The weekend's wasted, I totally didn't mug much, played some Devil May Cry, and that's all. I hope I will have enough time to finish the syllabus, I have been procrastinating too much..

There's really nothing much to blog about as there are no major activities.. Although I do hope there is :)

Went to watch the Red Knight, and it's kinda nice I guess? The musical was super crappy but funny at the same time, we all had a good laugh XD the bands were not bad and the 自弹自唱 people were okay. Too bad Shilbe's mike was too soft.. >.< I like Don't Ignore This Notice because all-girl bands are cool :D

Don't emo!! :D

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Was reading Wilfred's blog, and I realise that he's actually one insightful guy. I do admire him for his straightforwardness, and he's cool. Only bad thing is that he has shorter fringe. HAHA

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I realise that I have been lagging behind in everyday happenings, such as, don't laugh, but I didn't know who Michael Phelps was. Maybe I'm just the type of guy who don't associate myself with sports, but I needa know all these to get into the olympics fun, ya know. Haha.

I admire you for your courage. If I could be like you..

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语

So yesterday was national day. Went to school in the morning to do the class video montage draft with jon and jacob and it was rather fun considering all the effects we're gonna add. :) Hope jacob can finish it soon.

Went to NUS to find my bro and wait for my parents. My bro's guitar improved a lot! Haha he can 自弹自唱 some songs already. Then our parents came and we had lunch, asam fish! It's been so long since I last tasted one of 'em. Stoned at my bro's hostel with my parents for quite some time then we had dinner, then went to Queensway to get a new shoe for my brother. The first time he bought a Converse shoe.. I think the design is nice but it costs a bulky $130.. And the fridge which we wanted to buy @ Mustafa only costs $160. Then my parents was like "maybe you can put your milk in the shoe" haha!

Ok junyao wants me to mention that I sms him a lot of times yesterday talking about erm banging his head onto the wall or eating rocks founds on roads.

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

I really like Crush. At least David Archuleta tries something new. Haha.

Okay fine. I was trying to make up some very very emo lyrics because I was so bored and emo but I can't do it. And I feel so much better after squeezing out all my thoughts. XD

Hmm I wasn't really in the mood of blogging these few days I think, but quite a lot of exciting things happened..

First it was DJ's bdae! Some of the choir people went to his house to celebrate his birthday. Then it was like super gang ga because everyone didn't want to sit down on the dining table to have dinner :x but anyway in the end we just did. Then we sang songs and just stoned around talking until I couldn't get back to hostel in time hahahah but it was all worth it because it's dijie's birthday! :) Haha his sibilings are really fun and nice. Must go to his house next time XD

Today's National Day celebration and the programmes kinda sucked -.- until choir comes up and gets the whole hall's spirit to extreme heights yay our j1 batch rocks. Wonder how they did it but as the songs progressed more and more people joined in the singing session and by the end of the song session almost everyone was singing and jumping and playing train just like us :D Brings me back to the memories of us singing and running around during last year's National Day celebration and yeah that was fun. I love my juniors.

Then we had class outing @ sentosa, jon came us with this crazy idea of filming the MV for "Low" (step up 2 soundtrack)for the class montage. So we did a lot of crazy stuff such as the bunch of us guys giving this seducing look and we had weeyong do his cool rapping, along with some scenes of us playing around. It was kinda fun but tired at the same time.. I left my shoe there -.- luckily my class helped me to take the shoe else my favorite shoe is gone haha

4 day break, 1 day gone.. I don't know what I'm gonna do in the next few days, it's a BREAK for goodness sake don't mug too much.

Our mood is like the business cycle. There's upswings and downswings, tagging along the economic booms and 'emotional recessions'.. Then during which there will be an increase in cyclical unemployment but wait! Doesn't tally with mood because there's actually an increase in 'emotional employment' since you become more emo.. Haha

I wonder what I need in my life. I have always felt that my life is one which I am kinda happy with, I love music and I enjoy singing, I have friends who care about me and I have a happy family. So what else am I trying to reach for? There's seriously no reason for me to be depressed.. I'm so lost in my life, I don't know what makes me really happy anymore.

And I was very emo, so I walked to the dining hall for dinner and I realised that I can feel the wind stronger when my hand is parallel to the wind direction instead of being perpendicular. That was rather lame, but it made me realise that I'm not trying enough to make myself happy.

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

David Archuleta's latest single.

Alumni concert was incredible. There's really no way to describe it in words, for it is clearer sung than told. The repertoire was fantastic, with a wide range of songs of different genres, each one speaking out from each alumni member's heart. For me, I especially liked Amor De Mi Alma, I was really mesmerized by the feel of the song, I really can't describe it in words. However easy for a song is 不了情, the emotion and the feeling that each member of the Hwa Chong Voices has put in really touched me.

Today was a boring day because I had 5.5 hours straight of lessons -.- 2.5 hours of chemistry really puts me to death. And I had a running nose today.

I hate making decisions. Every time I do, I know one side will definitely get hurt. However, as much as I want to escape from it, it still haunts me day and night. Maybe what I need to do is just to follow what my heart desires..

I need some help in EQ. I suck at reacting to situations that I am not prepared for, resulting in causing another's dismay.

I'm.. surprised at the way we handle things, we can't even settle a meeting time and dinner location with ease.

My life is in a mess right now because of my inability to sort things out and to place things in order of importance and priority.

Sometimes maybe it's just me, I suspect about too many things and they get into my head and my brain feels like it's exploding. But at the end of the day, I have to believe in myself. I have to trust that what I am doing is the right thing.