Sigh. Don't know what is happening to me. Just cannot 提起精神.

Actually I still don't quite get what I am feeling now.. Sigh.. Even I can't understand myself.. Aren't I a failure? Sometimes I wonder the purpose of my existence xD And can suddenly go into "my own world" and dao everyone else one.

Sometimes thinking of her bah.. And having failed the "first attempt" (no I shouldn't call it that), I don't think I will have any chance bah. But 未来是不可预测的, right? I'll see.. But for now, I'll just continue mugging and I'll wish her happy and get good results.

I'm glad that I am thinking the right way.